Cait


Real life has taken a lot of my time, and it is not at all the pretty and happy stuffs. Second Life has, for the past 10 years, been my escape and home away from home. A happy place without worries, just fun and friends. Being a social butterfly, to me it always was such a wonderful distraction.

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Those happy times always come and go in waves and so I know there are episodes in both lives when things do not line up. As happened to me the past months. Real life worries, problems and all that made it hard to login to Second Life and be carefree. I’ve tried to escape but it was all too much.
Combined with the loss of some SL friends, who for all the right reasons either never log in anymore or,  if they do they,  have moved on and contact is getting less and less which by now basically left me in a situation I know all to well: lonely.

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It is how it goes. I know. It’s not the first time I find myself alone and lonely in Second Life and I think things will change. But for now, I don’t know what to do with myself.

I should smack myself and start decorating my new empty house which I put on my land weeks ago.

So much empty rooms, such loneliness.

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To my surprise and delight, one of my photos is in Huckleberry Hax’ list of his 10 favourites! I am particularly happy he has chosen one of my real, raw and not processed snapshots – a photo of the guests waiting for the bride and groom to arrive, the wedding of Delinda and Skip Staheli this summer. I actually had to download it from my own Flickr as it was a direct upload via the LL Viewer, so I didn’t even had it on my hard-disk to make it a banner image for this blog-post!

While I do not like to make lists – and am even hesitant to look at other peoples lists – I am of course honoured and feel proud. From what I get from Huck’s article, he exactly knows what lists can do, hence his extensive disclaimer. I understand that all too well.

Anyway, enjoy his favourite Second Life Photos by others, and if you do not follow them already on Flickr, you may want to do that from now on!

What the Huck?

Following on from my post on Tuesday, where I shamelessly self-promoted my ten most favourited own pictures at Flickr this year, I thought I’d look today at some of my favourite pictures of the year by other photographers.

Disclaimer: I lay no claim to this being any sort of definitive list whatsoever. It is simply ten of my personal favourite SL images. Yes, it is undoubtedly influenced by me being friends with some of the photographers. Yes, there are probably amazing photos out there by other photographers not included on this list (most likely because I haven’t encountered them, but also because I only have ten spots). Please don’t get offended if one of your photos or one of your friend’s or friends’ photos isn’t or aren’t included here – but by all means feel free to link to any of these works in the comments section below (I…

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‘While you are here, why don’t you do this check-up?
It has been a year and it is probably all fine’

‘Put your chin on that cushioned piece  and lean against the bar up there,
now sit still, I told you it won’t hurt and it will surely all be just fine’

‘You are doing great, don’t move, just a few seconds
I may need to adjust this some more…’

‘Read that text for me please, go on, you cannot do it wrong.
Oh you are just tired and worked a lot?’

‘Are you sure you are not moving? Sit still please and relax
while I check the data, it is probably all normal and such’

‘I will do another test, just to be sure, no worries,
it will probably  be nothing to worry about’

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‘Now read the text again, I am sure you will do great’

‘You are not just tired, let me assure you that’

‘Your right eye lost over 25% of vision in  a short period of time
this is highly unusual and may seem worrisome
go see a specialist soon, here is my report’

‘Keep calm and do not worry, it is probably nothing’

It is probably nothing.

But I am scared.


While I usually do not really blog items, I love to make an exception for this awesome prop with animations. It made me laugh out loud in real life when I tried it out, and since it has a really cool animation…I had to make a short video to show it – a picture would not do it justice.

Also it  illustrates the annual stress I have in real life, because I am indeed one of those persons who toss the light strings in the garage in January always thinking: “Oh it will be fine next Christmas!”. It never is, of course. And now, it happens in Second Life too….


Credits:
‘RC Tanglemess Lights in white’ by Redd Colombia (they come in a pack with two versions: blinky and non-blinky) and you can get them at the Tannenbaum Event.


December. The last month of the year, typically making me look back and reflect on real life and Second Life.
Going through my files filled with pics of locations, events and all that…I stumbled upon an online karaoke session and recording I did with Ratt, a dear friend, who left Second Life years ago, but who is still in my real life and with whom I share many awesome memories.

Like this karaoke-duet we did online in 2009.

Thanks Ratt, and damn..your voice rocks!

http://www.singsnap.com/karaoke/e/b3cd6f80


My friend Beth has gone through a rough Second Life summer and today she posted an article on her blog, explaining why she has reset her Second Life past and purged her Flickr, virtually erasing a couple of months.

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I think we, Second Life residents, can relate to that. Second Life is, for most, not just a Barbie and dress-up playground, but a true second ‘life‘. It sure is to me. While I admit that playing the dress-up and all is something I really enjoy, I do understand Beth’s emotional roller-coaster when it comes to relationships, be it romantically or not. Been there, done it, got the mesh-shirt. Haven’t we all? Like many others in Second Life, I have had the immense joy of finding a soulmate and also the grief and pain of losing them, for all kind of reasons. Did I erase and purge my past? No I have never done that. I have unfriended and got unfriended. I’ve deleted some dedicated albums on Flickr (but never the pics themselves), I have never removed blog-posts.
Nothing compares to you...

Do I look at said pics and posts? Nope, some are too painful still, but they are out there..as I posted them and they represent me and my past.
I have loved and I have lost. I cherish  the memories by now, and also cannot bear to look at some pictures and other online statements made at that time. One day I might. Or maybe never.
The thing is, those memories..the visual proof of experiences that were absolutely awesome and the good times, I would not want to erase them. Even though times changed, loves and friendships have vaporized and are gone, there were real.
I refuse to regret past and gone loves and friendships, no matter why or how they ended.

Date night

Love and friends happened and they were wonderful,  deleting the pictures and/or blogs would hurt me as much as the actual break ups. I keep them online, but try not to dwell over them. In some cases I will never look at them again. Moving on is another thing.

It happens. It happened. It was good and then it wasn’t.


“It has been too long since we’ve met,
I am glad  I finally  have some time for a chat.
You are my best friend and I am sorry
for having been so quiet,
I have missed you so, so much.
And because you are  important to me
I would love to have you
sitting on the front-row seat
at our wedding, next weekend.
Please just say yes?”

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“Yes, I do”

“You are the best
We are so happy you will be there
You really should meet her soon!
I am sure you are as delighted as I am”

“Yes, I am”