Please don’t see me ugly…

When I was 4 years old and went to Kindergarten, I met my BFF in that class (though we didn’t call it ‘BFF’ back then) and her and I were like twin sisters. For years. Over 20 years. We lived two streets away from each-other and spent all our time together.

We grew up together in the same small village, the same schools (classes even) and when our ways parted in education- I went to college and she found a job – we were still BFF’s. She got married and so did I  and then …well, things and life happened.

A falling out.
Back then a very, very big nasty deal and no, I am not proud on how I handled things back then. But she had part in it too. But we were young, merely 25. It happened and we never spoke or saw each-other again.

Till last week.
I got a message, from her. A simple ‘hi, do you remember me?’ Just like that.

I was baffled and shocked. OF COURSE I remembered her. Gawd. My BFF! So I replied within a second….and before we knew, we set a date to meet up soon!

Please don't see me ugly...a blogpost

Tomorrow we will meet, in a fancy restaurant, for lunch. And I am nervous. I feel like I have things to explain, stuff to tell and I want to know how she has been. How life treated her and how her family is doing.  We’ve exchanged pics the past days, both with the idea “so you know what I look like” and both said to each other “You look the same like you did 25 yrs ago“.

Her contacting me, out of the blue, I think that is a good sign. I now wish I would have dared to contact her, sooner….just because, I’ve never forgotten her and our friendship.

What will happen, I do not know. 25 years happened, for the both of us. We will see, tomorrow.

I am nervous.


Dear darlin’ surprised to hear from me?
Bet you’re sittin’ drinkin’ coffee, yawnin’ sleepily
Just to let you know
I’m gonna be home soon
I’m kinda awkward and afraid
Time has changed your point of view


4 Comments Add yours

  1. landacrystal says:

    Lovely post Caitlin. Heartfelt and honest. I wish you luck in your meeting.

  2. amyalka says:

    I’m glad you’ll meet her. Have a nice time and enjoy it <3 .

  3. Thanks Landa and Amy! We had our lunch and it was so good. Yup, we briefly touched the subject of the ‘falling out’, within 2 mins after we met – both of us apparently needed to get this dealt with asap and it took about 1 minute, we decided it was not worth more of our time. And the rest of the afternoon – yeah, long lunch! – was awesome! <3

  4. so lovely you had a happy ending!!

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